acute paroxysms of anguish

The signs should be more than enough to tell you what to do.

A week and a half into the new year and I’m starting to think whether and, at the most, convince myself that I am on the right track. For a change, I think I am.

In all fairness to the eleven days that just passed since the world welcomed 2009, I feel that there’s a majority of great positive vibes rolling into my way. (And that’s something new for me that it might come across as alienating for some. My blog entries might give you the idea of thinking otherwise but the stuff I have here are stuff I write before I sleep after a heavy day‘s work so you should know what I mean now. But I am changing. I am trying to, mind you. And I will continue to.) If there’s anything (or anyone) negative somewhere, I do not watch out for it or pay any worthy attention. Amidst all the bullsh*t happening and existing around me (and wherever they are in proximity from me), I will choose to live my life my way. Even if it is to dishearten or disappoint those who wish for my collapse and disgrace.

2009 will be a better year. It must be.

Giving what someone wants is different from giving him what he needs. In a world where these two are often confused, it takes a lot of discernment, fairness, and, yes, sensitivity, to know their difference to begin with.

Part 1: Sabi nga ng pari sa kasal na pinuntahan ko nung Sabado ng hapon, To love is to sacrifice. The greater the love, the greater the sacrifice.

Part 2: The more your rekindle the memories, the harder it will be for you to move on.

Part 3: Kasi nga, it’s all in you. Sa’yo nakasalalay ‘to lahat. Yung pagtanggap na wala na talaga. Yung pag-unawa. Yung pagiging malakas. Yung paglaban sa lungkot. Kung babalik, eh di babalik. Eh paano kung hindi? Paano ka?

Part 4: Mahirap bumiyahe ng loaded ang sasakyan.

Part 5: But moving forward doesn’t mean not looking back.

Part 6: I’m fine. But I can be better.